Faith Knitted Living

For nearly a week now I have sat in some heaviness. There are things that I know to be true. This world is not my home. God reigns over all and is ever present. My faith in God depends on who He is, not what He does. I have asked God a lot of questions in this week. I ask God questions all the time because of how He created me.

The biggest question I have had also surrounds immense gratitude. I am grateful to God over the outpouring of people who are seeking Him. I pray that this passion to find God and find truth is lasting. That the fires do not wane. In that gratitude my heart is overjoyed that heaven rejoices when 1 lost soul finds the way back to God. So the question. Why wasn’t what happened when Jesus died on the cross and was resurrected enough? Have we as Christ followers heard the Resurrection story too many easters that it no longer holds the weight and reverence it deserves? Have we become so calloused that we have lost the fire and love for the Lord?

My mind is perplexed that it took a human being losing his life to shake people up. To wake people up. My heart is confused that Jesus’ death wasn’t enough for people to share His love and truly seek Him. For this I seek the Lord to show me clarity because right now I do not understand. I don’t understand why the cross doesn’t spark passion. I don’t understand why God’s Word is less than words of a man. Albeit from what I’ve learned this man spoke the word of God, but why are we so quick to take up the torch of a person when we have let the torch of the Gospel sit?

Our churches and our hearts have grown cold to the truth of the Lord, but the fire has been stoked by this tragedy. I try to understand this. I am grateful that hearts are being set ablaze. Jesus died so that I could type this. He took all the things that I could never atone for on my own. Willingly. Knowing He never lived like I have. In His love for the people God created He laid down His life. Jesus is the way to everlasting life.

I know there are things that I will not understand on this side of heaven. I also know that God uses everything for His glory, and in times like this, that will have to be enough. I celebrate those renewing their faith in God, and for those beginning with God, even in my confusion. I pray. I pray that the boldness continues. I pray that with every breath God is glorified.